You planned your life so carefully, but you left out one detail. The hidden hand deals just one round, and the winds of change prevail. " Starship" - my sorrow and sense of helplessness about your death my son. Happy Birthday, beloved son. I just wish you were here with us to celebrate. I remember all of your past birthdays and the great celebrations they were. I feel that you are the best part of my life, the light of my life and the reason for my life. When you were born, I was so aware that I would be terrified of any harm coming to you. I grieve so deeply that you are not here to celebrate your 23rd birthday with us. My worst fears came true the day you died. My life, as it was, ended that day. A different life began but it was not one that had anything in common with what my life was with you here. You are the best son a woman could ever have. I am proud to be your mother. You made life shine for me. Look down on us and help us heal. Keep sending those signs, I need them so much. I still can't believe you are gone and left without me. It doesn't help that the best and the worst happened in the month of May - a month I used to love for its new beginning. There are no new beginnings now, only time left to grieve. Love, Mom       Created with love by mom, Karen Thank you Beth Thank you Nica Thank you Carol Thank you Diane Thank you Linda Thank you Susie Thank you Christine Thank you Bev Thank you Carolyn Thank you Shirley Thank you Judi Thank you Lynn